frustration... frus-tration...

It is really hard when you bump into a problem... and if that problem takes the confidence in you.. Well, i recently "bumped" into a catastrophe... Unfortunately, i didn't pass my chem 150 subject, physical chemistry. I know it is my fault considering the fact that I wasn't able to do my best. The stubbornness got the best out of me. I easily gave up on the subject because I experienced a hard time studying and understanding the lessons. I also had a problem with one of the professors teaching the subject.

I can blame myself for eternity, but it will not change anything. I am still a failure. For the third time!!! I hate myself. Right now, I just want to go out on a busy street with all the cars rushing and blowing their horns, and just shout, shout 'till my lungs explode. Shout 'till I removed this feeling... I continue to disappoint my family, my mother, my siblings... I continue to disappoint myself! Still committing the same mistakes, over and over again. I am tired of failing... I am tired of being a failure.. I hate the feeling of being dumb and worthless..